Yesterday was rough. I wasn’t sure what to expect for my first Father’s Day without my dad and, surprisingly (at least to me), seeing all of everyone’s beautiful wedding photos hurt the most. Knowing that I’ll never have that father daughter dance breaks me.
Then I woke up this morning feeling a little bit more energized, and even more motivated than usual to do the thing I love to do most: create. I miss my blog content, which I had actually slowed down on doing even before my dad’s passing. I miss working with brands I believe in to help them create meaningful marketing content. I miss recording my new podcast, @alittletoomuchpodcast, which really *just* started but I absolutely love doing. Miss is the key word with all of this. I miss my dad more than anything else I’ve listed here but I dunno...maybe it’s cheesy to say this, but i feel like his spirit is driving me forward in a new way...and that means more to me than a photo that I’ll never have, from a relationship that doesn’t even exist...YET. 💫
@misskristagram took this photo of a few of my favorite shoes for @fnplatform a few weeks ago and it puts a big smile on my face. Can you tell I love a leopard shoe? 🐆 What do you guys love to create?
I’m truly at a loss for words but this past Thursday my father passed away in his home, presumably of a heart attack. He just turned 72. If you knew my dad then you know what an honorable man and father he was- the best in the world, truly. @sarah_grise wrote me the most beautiful email telling me about how she will always remember the time he helped us set up our apartment and hung up shelves for her when we lived together in Gramercy and how much that meant to her (Super man, as she called him). His friends have texted me telling me how he never said no to anyone asking for a favor and was always the most fun to be around. It’s the little things about a person that makes them who they are- that’s what you miss the most. I’m devastated beyond belief that my father was taken from me so soon. I truly believed that the universe wouldn’t do that to me after losing my little sister to opioids just three short years ago, but this is what life has handed me and I’m going to do my best to live my best life possible, which is what my dad has always wanted for me. I will miss our almost daily text conversations, our FaceTimes, our Thanksgiving in LA bonding time, Christmas with him, his advice on exercise and eating healthy, and all his stories about him and his best friends. He loved his friends almost as much as he loved Melissa and me. He knew most of them since he was in elementary and high school and their camping, kayaking, and adventures together made his short 72 years the best they could possibly be. I will always be grateful to have had a dad who loved to LIVE his life- I like to think I got a bit of that from him and hope one day to pass that joie de vivre on to my own children.
I will miss him forever, as will so many many others 💚
#SkincareSunday: Favorite CBD lotion? I have few, including this super luxe version from @thelordjones 🌱 It’s not cheap but their formula is one of the best that I’ve tried and it has 100mg of CBD per bottle so it works super well on lower back pain (me!) or even aching feet after a long night wearing heels 👠 What’s your favorite CBD lotion? I need to try more!